Saturday 11 December 2004

Computer Problems

The only things I wanna say is, idiot taskbar!! My taskbar decided to NOT show which programs i have opened i.e. defective so I tried repairing windows. Unfortunately, that uninstalled all my programs and I spent hours trying to reinstall them. Finally got so fed up, I just format my entire laptop and reinstall everything. Luckily Chee Weng could lend me his external hard disk, can save all my documents inside. Thanks man, you save my computer!! Thank you to Boon Tat for lending me Matlab again and Kian and Shio Pin for the speedy return of my CDs. Without you all, I would have blown up looooong ago. Now, reformatted and ready to go again!! Plus, this time I'm a little smarter; created a restore point so I have a back up now!! Yes........

Christmas Gift.

I was browsing the net and happened along this site. You all should see it. The real Christmas spirit, pure and simple.

Friday 10 December 2004

A modelling journey through a friend's eyes...

*Disclaimer: wenliang and adrian claims no responsibility on these images. similarities (persons, symbols or otherwise) are purely coincidental.*


Mastercard's new ad

This was the early days. Notice the precise angle of the head, the open mouth all nicely captured. It's as if he's really asleep!


Making it into the medicine world one way or another...

He has always dreamed of making it big in the biotech world. So much so that when the opportunity arrived, he grasps it with both hands and hasn't look back yet since.


Going international...

His success caught the eyes of international companies. Soon, he was famous throughout the world!!


but deciding to return to his roots. Or somewhere close to it...

His success was bringing him to new heights. But, beneath the fame and fortune, he was a lonely man. So, he then decided to return home and go back to his modelling roots; looking asleep.

Now, he is chasing his first love, biotech while sustaining it with his part-time modelling career. I wish him all the best and may he succeed in everything he does.

Wednesday 8 December 2004

Sunday 5 December 2004

Circumstances around us

Today's sermon was powerful. Pastor Dave talked about what God is saying through our circumstances. Just a note, his talk on Shoutlouder on Friday night was also powerful.

Right, on with today's sermon. According to Pastor Dave, there are 4 different things that God may be saying to us through our circumstances. The first, nothing. It could just be a phase we are going through, one of those things that we commonly refer to as, "that's life". These circumstances help us grow up. It can even lead us to the ultimate leap of faith; willing to die for Him.

God could also be telling us that it's the time to take the greatest care for the devil is nearby. Satan strikes along fault lines. He searches out chinks in our armour and continuously attacks us through those. So in those times, we have to be really aware of what we should and should not do. Also, listen carefully because the devil may try to tempt us or make his lies sound like the truths. Verse to remember: Ephesians 6:13-18.

The third thing God could be trying to tell us is that we reap what we sow. There is a verse that are related, Galatians 6:7-9
Anyone who receives instruction in the word much share all good things with his
instructor. Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows.
The one who sows to please his sinful nature, from that nature will reap
destruction; the one who sows to please the Spirit, from the Spirit will reap
eternal life. Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we
will reap a harvest if we do not give up.
The simple message is that Heaven is always the dominating force. So, if we want good things in life, we have to sow good seeds at all times. Note, not once in a while, ALL times.

The last thing that God might be doing through our circumstances is testing our faith. (Job comes into mind) You might even say it's like an examination from heaven (we just can't run away from exams, can we?). In fact, most of the time, Satan is used by God to tempt us, break us to test how much faith do we have in Him. Related verse: James 1:2-4
Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds,
because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.
Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not
lacking anything.
The last words make a powerful point, mature and complete, not lacking anything. So note that it's when we go through trials and problems that we are really going on our way towards being a complete person, someone we want to be. So in reality, there is no shortcut to success.

I read somewhere once that only dead people have no problems. So, be thankful you have them because it means you are alive and that God is working in your life to make you a better person!

On a final note, a phrase Pastor Dave used for Shoutlouder and morning services has become my watch word this week.

Strength supersedes power.

The more things are different...

the more they stay the same!

That thought stuck me at Shout Louder last Friday. For one thing, Pastor Dave said that each of us is unique and that we should never compare ourselves to anyone. I found that very true and inspiring.

In life, there will always be someone better than you. You might be good at one thing but there are others who are better than you at other things. Unfortunately, most people only see what others are better then them at. As the saying goes, the grass is always greener on the other side. But why do we torture ourselves so?

Each of us go through life our own way. No one will ever have the exact same experiences as you. Brothers can have the same family but live totally different lives. Friends in the same class can still go through school differently. A loving couple who goes through all difficulties together will experience different things.

For example, say we get 2nd place in a competition. We naturally will look up to the champion and ask ourselves why we are not as good as him/her. The fact we haven't consider though, is how long it took them to reach that greatness. The fact is, while it may take you 10 years to do something great, it may take someone else 5 years to do the exact same thing. At the same time, there are those who might only reach your current level after 20 years! Each of us learn things at our own pace.

Sometimes, we don't realize this due to the various messages the world throws at us. The world is always saying that only one way is right. That everyone must follow the system. Whoever who doesn't is instantly labeled crazy, insane. Imagine a world where everyone was the same. How boring!

It's hard to see the uniqueness in us. We always want to be like someone else. We want to live the life that someone else is living because it seems so much better. But, we will never be able to because we are different from them! We want to fit in. We want others to think highly of us. How can we fit in? We are different from one another. There is no way we are able to copy someone just so that they might like us. In fact, they might even get creeped out. There is no such thing as normal. What we might think is normal might be strange to someone else.

In fact, we should celebrate the differences between people! That's the only way we can get different ideas, different opinions and different point of views. Just as we need to see a building from every angle to fully appreciate the architecture, we need to see issues from every angle to fully understand it.

One good example is Formula One. I find it a little boring due to the lack of real differences between the teams. Each team does the same strategy; race as fast as I can and take as little pit-stops as needed. However, look at football/soccer. Different teams play differently, use different strategies. Some teams prefer to defend and hit on the counter-attack. Some prefer to attack all out and hope to score more goals then the opponent. Even for attacking, there are various options. Crossing in from the flanks or taking the direct route through the middle are just 2 of the many choices available. Each is good and none is better than the others. Depending on the type of players, different tactics work.

Interestingly, people seem to enjoy difference even if they loathe being different. Rules for games are constantly changed in order that no one team or one strategy dominates. You can even say that being different is what makes life interesting.

So if that is the case, why do we still want to be the same as everyone else? It's an idiotic fantasy. If our DNA, the core of who we are, is unique per person, how can we ever be a carbon copy of someone else? We live our life and no one else can live it for us. Neither can they ever live it for themselves.

Hahahaha.... okay, that's enough crapping now. Celebrate differences!!

Thursday 2 December 2004

Worse dinner ever?

Today, it was me and Brandon cooking. Actually, Brandon did all of the cooking, I just help cut vege and be his extra hands...

From the start, it was not looking good. I amwas tired out. Still, had a duty to do so...

Well, first the mince pork was marinated as well as the fish. Also, the soup was put to boil already. Nothing wrong, right? Next, fry the fish! Straight up, got mistake liao. Forgot to coat one of the fish with corn flour. Never mind, at least the other fish still coated. Not bad...

After that, heat up oil and cook meatballs!! And there's mistake no. 2. Instead of putting egg white into the mixture, we put only the egg yolk. So, our meatballs just would not stick. We tried putting flour on it but since some of the pieces were a bit big, it still broke apart in the pan. That's something new, trying to deep fry pieces of mince pork+onions+carrots covered in corn flour. End result, had a bowl of fried mince meat+onions; ranging from light brown to black. Tasted nice though. Serious!!

Next mistake, forgot to add in capsican! Brandon was cooking the sweet and sour sauce for the fish. (Point to note, the sauce was lacking ketchup at first since we didn't realize our supply is too little. In the end, had to use those packet sauce we stole/took/had from our halifax days.) So, have to keep the capsican for another day...

Well, overall dinner was actually pretty good. Brandon's bone soup was fantastic! Best soup I've tasted in Sheffield. The mince meat also tasted good even if it looks bad. And the fish also turned out pretty well. So, cannot really say it was badlah.

The bad part though was the cleaning up. Stove, sink, draining area, floor. You won't believe the amount of dirt due to the meatball incident! Think a bit more than my water+oil incident last week.

So, lesson from this, make sure you know how to cook what you are cooking before you start to cook. Also, put ingredients within eyesight!!

Sunday 28 November 2004

Transformation


Before

After

Spot the difference!! To see more, click here.

More than my room was transformed. I have been working harder this week too. On a recap, have begun to go into the lab for my project. That's new thing No. 1

Secondly, Poho this week was pretty good. It's always good though, mind you.

Next new thing, the MASSOC website has been changed around. New photos, new committee, new link. Plus, learnt something new. Never order 10 chicken and chips at 2.30 am when only 3 people are eating. Crown Pizza ended up giving me 6 extra pieces!! The result, ate 4 pieces at 4 and still had about 3/4 pieces in the microwave. The effect: was so full the next day, no need breakfast plus the fact that I couldn't look at anything oily for a whole day. Good stuff...

Today's sermon was about golf. First of all, about the grip. In golf, you don't hold the club too tightly or too loose. In the same way, we grip on to life but we don't strangle it because it needs room for God to work His miracles. By gripping life nicely, we will be comfortable. Next, stand. Having a good stand will provide good balance. Next, swing. In other words, just go with the flow of life. And finally, follow through. Whenever we start something, we should see it through till the end (something very important in my opinion). Once we see the end result, we can then say it is good.

2 Samuel 23 talks about just showing up. As long as we show up to where we are suppose to be, the battle is won already because God will lead us on to victory. All we have to do is show up. Matthew 16 speaks about stamping our signature. Everyone has a certain signature that when they do something, anyone who knows them can tell that it's their handiwork. In the same way, each of us leave a bit of our signature in everyone we meet. The final lesson I remember from Pastor Glyn's sermon is that sometimes, being in the rough is not necessarily a bad thing. It's in the rough when we can discover many things we never knew before. In fact, he says that the most important lessons we learn are in there. He also says that God meets us there to bring us out of it. For it is while we are outside of it, we don't really see a need for God and it is when we finally enter it that we learn something new, something profound. And once we get out, we will be much wiser.

I find that line particularly useful. If there's one thing I know, it's that only when we do something ourself that we learn the lesson. And it's not when we do it well, it's when we slip up when the lesson really sticks. For example, mixing water with hot oil. My friend has told me not to do it because it will cause the oil to splash out. In fact, it has happen before but that was when I was stir-frying vegetables. So, the lesson is there but it didn't really caught on. However, once I accidentally drop a blob of water into an empty pan of hot oil and the whole stove was quickly covered in oil!!! It's only after that that I take extra care not to have anything watery near the stove when I'm cooking.

Also, I realize that I find out more about myself when I am struggling with something. Last year, when I was struggling with my studies, I quickly realize which path in engineering I should take. However, if I hadn't struggle I probably still think I can do any major and made my decision a little harder to make. That's the thing when you are an A-star student. You know you can do anything, so how to you really know what is it you do well in? Everything is A, is good. I dunno, that's just what I think.

Anyway, gonna put Pastor Glyn's words to practise. Studies, here I come!!

Monday 22 November 2004

Refreshing

What a week it's been. The declaration I made was only last week and already it seems like eons ago. Frankly, I feel more relax now.

Well, this week went pretty normally. Wednesday, I cooked a meal for 6 people for the first time without using any instant mixes (see here for more details). My friends said it was ok actually.

On Thursday night, it snowed!! Imagine that, snow in November. Not bad eh? The weather here has been getting colder quite fast. Already the temperature is mostly one digit. Hahha... in December, we might actually go below 0 degrees. So much for having one jacket...

On that note, whenever I went out, I can already see my breath. Having your hands out too long will be like washing them with ice cold water for half a minute. Time to put on all the thermal wears....

In the course of the week, I've been greatly encouraged and motivated to continue to do God's work. I found out this week that at least 3 of my friends have converted. This is great news indeed. Hahaha...I would really like to meet up with them. It's so encouraging that God's mighty hands are at work all the time. At times when I think I can't see God's work, He goes and reminds me again of His mighty powers.

Speaking of which, church this week was a refreshing session. Coincidently, today's sermon was about refreshing ourselves. Pastor Jenny talked about how we can refresh our souls if we get tired or too stuck in the mundane. How we can get a new set of teeth to once again grab life with a stranglehold. Some verses quoted were Isaiah 41:15, Isaiah 43:19 and Matthew 9:16-17. One thing that stood out from her sermon was the calling to clean ourselves first. As Matthew 9:16-17 says,
No-one sews a patch of unshrunk cloth on an old garment, making the tear worse.
Neither do men pour new wine into old wineskins. If they do, the skins will
burst, the wine will run out and the wineskins will be ruined. No, they pour new
wine into new wineskins, and both are preserved.
Pastor Jenny used these 2 verses to say that sometimes, before God can give us the new things He has planned for our lives, we have to refresh ourselves, make ourselves ready to receive it.

It's interesting sometimes going through life with God by my side. Whenever I feel down, depressed, ready to throw in the towel, He is there to remind me again of His power and mercy. It truly is an up and down lifestyle. ^_^

Hmm... final notes. It's so nice sometimes to walk outside even in the cold. Once you come in, it's so nice and warm.... Another thing I like about the British weather, I can walk outside in the rain. Hahaha... don't worry, it's what we Malaysians would term drizzle. It's nice to just walk and enjoy the pitter patter of the rain hitting on the face. Enjoying God's blessing on the earth. Whenever I take the time to look around me, I see His greatness. Anyways, it's nice to appreciate the art around us, man-made or God-made. Makes life so much more pleasant.

Thursday 18 November 2004

Cooking

For the first time, I cooked not one, not two, but two dishes and one soup for dinner! Well, really cook without using instant mixes or with anyone's help (okay, so I asked advice before hand). Not a bad dinner though little. No one had much to say about it though. Wonder if that's a good sign or a bad sign...

On another note, I have deleted almost all my photos so, whoever still wants them, please claim them fast (sounds like an auction hahaha...).

Monday 15 November 2004

2 Corinthians 5:17 - Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!

Just something worth noting; since I put the site counter last week, I have received 81 hits over a period of just 8 days. that works out to be an average of 10 hits a day. Hahhaa... and here I thought hardly anyone visits my blog. Of course, almost half those hits came from Malaysia though I did get some weird ones such as from other blogs of people I have no idea about plus a couple from a google search of shoutlouder and a yahoo search of 'mnid'. After Malaysia was the UK which doesn't include my own checking in (ok, just the first times but was only 2!). But, the website from where most users came in from was Ee-lin's blog. Hmm... point worth noting. The most hits though came from TMNet which means either my family or friends back home. And, that's it. On to the main part...

Peace after the chaos

This photo I took of my living room is a perfect picture to mark my new beginning. Just for fun, I'll let you all think about why is the picture titled "Peace after the chaos". I'll give the reason later, maybe a week from now.

The title for this landmark post is very apt as well. At this point in time, I would just like to say my blog is finally, totally and 100% up. I have the tag-board I want plus an extra doodleboard which is kinda fun too (though no one posts on it. wonder why...). I have the links to the blogs I read plus links to some nice group websites. And I'm link to everything I want. Probably some of the links will be updated, new ones will be added but the template is pretty much settled and that's where I want to mark this new beginning from.

Well, basically the last few weeks have been quite hectic for me in terms of work and socializing. And I've felt a little pressured, felt like being pushed into a direction which I didn't like. But, after spending some time in church and rediscovering the wonders of God, I can firmly say NO. I have heard many times about peer pressure and have always felt I can stop its influence on my life. So far, I have been moderately successful. I said I won't drink, I had the occasional drink. I said I won't find a girlfriend, I didn't. Many things I say I won't do, I didn't do or didn't go into the extreme. However, standing up to it, saying no to it took a lot out of me and I have felt more and more pressed into submiting to it. Felt like being pushed by everyone into submitting into the lifestyle that is 'normal' by the world standards.

And I haven't. The difference between my priorities and the world's priorities is causing a lot of friction within me. One side says, follow your heart. The other says, just give in and follow the world. As a result, I've grown moodier and easily show a black face. I won't blame anyone for causing this friction for I know you are all only concern about me and you want me to be successful. But, I must take this time to vent a little of this off and to tell all, family and friends alike, please back off.

Many have told me, find a girlfriend, do well in your studies so you can get a good job. Also, many said that I should drink some beer because next time, socializing with colleagues will involve that. First of all, it's these very words that have been driving me up the wall.

And so, right here, right now, I am going to come clean. I admit, I have compromise my standards sometimes. I say I would not masturbate, I have failed to live up to those words. I said I would not drink, within the last 2 months, I have drunk 3 can of beers, 4 shots of vodka and a shot of tequila. I know I am prone to anger and I do not always see things the way people see things. I am not proud of these things and I choose not to do them again, God willing.

And now, my priorities. In terms of girlfriends and all that, please let me decide. I know you all worry about me. I have heard many saying I should get one because it's the next step. But I believe that when the right girl for me comes, I will know because God will show her to me. Yes, we cannot just say God, show me my soulmate and sit in the house all day but at the same time, I know God will bring me into the relationship world when He knows I'm ready for it. So, I say just let Him work His magic in my life. I choose to just enjoy knowing girls and understanding them for now. Please respect my decision.

The second thing. Some have said I should learn to drink. Some even go as far as saying I should learn to smoke a bit because the peer pressure in the working life will get me into it. Not to drink or smoke excessively but to do it socially. I say, NO. I refuse to drink anything alcoholic (with the exception of shandy, wine and champagne as they seem OK for now...) anymore. If you truly respect me in any way, please don't ever force to me to drink anymore. I fear I might hurt you physically or mentally. As for smoking, that is something I will never pick up, God willing. If you smoke, that is your choice. Just don't lead me into that life. I choose to draw the line for both these things. If I ever compromise on this again, it will only be for the Glory of God.

I find the world very shallow. You study, you graduate, get a good job with good pay, get married, have children and enjoy a wonderful family life. NO! I am not going down the same path. I say, work in a job where I can serve the community the best and do God's work here on earth. That is my plan for life. So what if I don't get a good pay? I don't care! When I say it's not about the money, it's really not about the money. For it is said in the Bible,
Matthew 6:26-30 - Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store
away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more
valuable than they? Who of you by owrrying can add a single hour to his life?
And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They
do not labour or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his
splendour was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of
the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not
much more clothe you, O you of little faith?
I choose to live a life after Him and not after anything anybody says the world is like.

I take a stand to follow my Father in heaven forever and ever. Yes, I will stumble along the way but I keep faith and hold on to His promise that He will never forsake me. Just as my parents are always there for me and point me in the right direction, how much more will God be there for me and guide me! I take a stand not to follow what feng shui says. I take a stand not to believe in luck. I take a stand not to fashion myself to what the world says is good. I have chosen the path less taken. The straight and narrow. I have chosen to do what God wants me to do. I believe that everything that happens is a work of God's hands. And that, is how I can only live.
Matthew 5:33 - But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these
things will be given to you as well.

This decision is not something I decided on a whim. I have been thinking it through. Believe in me when I say I have thought long and hard, taking into consideration what everyone has said. Yes, living differently from others will be hard but that's something I am willing to face as I know God is with me. I cannot and will never try again to fit in. I know it will be hard but at the same time, I know it's the only way for me. Compromising my promises and my priorities is always going to haunt me. It will tear me inside. Holding on to them, leaning on God and following my conscience will lead me to peace within my soul. It's not something that's only happening when I'm old. I am at peace even now.

A saying I heard in the movie 'What A Girl Wants' is so true; "Why fit in when you stand out?" Why indeed.

Monday 8 November 2004

Motivation

Today's sermon was awesome. Pastor Dave was preaching today and he preach about how we can take the next step.

In a nutshell, he preach that when we keep on giving even when we are empty, that's when we will really see God's miracles work in our lives. That God cannot do miracles if we are full. Which is very true. If we are contented with our lives, what miracles are needed? Only when we have nothing, then only can God do something to enrich our lives.

Thinking back, there has been quite a number of similar but not the same sermons over the last year. It makes it even more fundamental in seeing God's work in our lives. To sum it all up, when we keep faith in Jesus, and we carry on keeping faith and doing His will on earth even when we get to a point where we think we have nothing left to give, then we will really see God's hands on our lives. It speaks about trusting God wholely and proclaiming His words shamelessly.

Some thing has happen to me over the weekend. I pledge my life to serve God and in return, He gave me His promise over my life. It's a promise I know He will never break and it's a promise that I'll hold on to forever. He is my Father in Heaven and just as my parents will never forsake me, neither will He. With His promise, I can now go through life confidently and successfully.

Dear Lord, thank you for your promise. Thank you that you accept me just as
I am. You have made me perfect and that is something I will never forget. Thank
you for your guidance over my life. I pray that in everything I do, I give glory
unto You. In Jesus might name, Amen.

Sunday 7 November 2004

Blogger Quiz

Hmm, found this on Hong Leong's blog. Cute quiz.





You Are a Life Blogger!



Your blog is the story of your life - a living diary.
If it happens, you blog it. And make it as entertaining as possible.


Shoutlouder Day 2

Today was a great day!! Mark Ritchie was amazing!! His sermon was life changing! Definitely worth the time and money.

There's nothing much I want to write about that here. Instead, I'll just talk about updates.

First, I have now 2 tagboards!! Hahahahaa... for the fun of it. And, I finally made my sidebar longer than my main column. Still to come, webtracker (once I find a good one) and pictures. Bear with me on this.

What else is there to say? Church is tomorrow and I'm so excited over it!!

Oh, Internet is very slow. Even slower than 56k. No idea why. Hope it's better by tomorrow.

Ermmm, that's it for now. See you!!

Saturday 6 November 2004

More musings.

But first, pictures!! I promise pictures of my room and here they are!! Click here. Having said that, anyone knows a good site for picture placing? Also, which web tracker is the best?

And on with my crazy thoughts...

Suddenly, I realize a few things about life. Whenever we say devil, we normally think he's the one who puts stumbling blcks in our life. Things like sickness, poverty, dangerous people, etc. Well, he could be those. But, like what pastor Mal Fletcher said, some of those also came from God. As he said, Satan will take advantage of all this situation. From what I see, this means the devil is not only trying to pull us down but anytime we are down, he will try to keep us there.

By thinking that Satan brings trouble, we may think that he is only outside. That he is creating problems in the world. But something hit me last week. Satan is also near us. He doesn't only act through others but in us. He is Anger, he is Fear, he is Doubt, he is Insecurity, he is Worry. God has many great plans for each and everyone of us but the devil will always put this insecure feelings in us to prevent us from fulfilling this plans. That's how he works.

When I realize that, I know that God is always for me and always going to be there to help me get through and fulfill those plans. Any Doubt, any Worry, any Fear I have over those plans are only works of the devil and nothing more. As it is said, if God is for me, who can be against me? Realizing that, nothing is impossible. As long as it's in God's plan, all things are possible. Really, the sky is the limit. Many a times they say things are impossible. Well, so many 'impossible' things have been done like going into space, running below 10 seconds and flying a heavier than air plane. Why not the next impossibles like creating the perfect diodes, finding a cure for all types of sickness and even, educating all men so that we are all civilised? no more fighting, no more backstabbing, no more evil. It's fantasy but I say, it can be reality.

Sunday 31 October 2004

A week of discoveries

My first discovery (well, more for you all), I have gmail!! Dunno why I get it also haahahahaha...

Second discovery, the washing powder I brought over...






has a scoop!! and a clip!! hahaha.... let's not even think of the reasons behind it...

3rd discovery, the washing machine has a hot dryer!! Yes, I've been blur...

and the final discovery... I really, really, REALLY hate alcohol and cigarettes. Plus, disco music and all the techno remixes suck.

Monday 25 October 2004

Manchester United 2-0 Arsenal

Yyyyyyyyyyeeeeeessssssssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There goes Arsenal's unbeaten run, there goes their invincibility and there goes Manchester United back in action!!

Well, not that I watch the match. After church (which was pretty good), forgot about the match and went home to rest after lunch. However, I got news of the result in the evening and that caps a brilliant day! Manchester United are back! Glory, glory Man Utd!! Penalty by van Nistelrooy and goal by Rooney was enough to settle this. As an added bonus, Arsenal didn't score! Hahahaha...

My friends who watched the match said Man U played pretty rough but somehow, I'm not too bothered. After all, no one would say Arsenal was playing a gentleman's game during the 90's. Anyway, just to be neutral, I went to www.soccernet.com to check out it's report on the match. From what I read, it seems that though Man U was pretty rough, Arsenal also was too. Anyway, that's my opinion. Nite all...

Sunday 24 October 2004

The week ahead looks...

Great!! But then again, that's how all my weeks start. The irony is, this is posted on Saturday but for me, weeks start on Monday. Anyway, after months of no blog-reading/blog-posting/blog-commenting, I'm back on track! Just read through everyone (of importance) blog namely all the name you see at the side. Got Tag-Board up, and even linked to BB Egroup. Hmm... next thing is to link SSP Egroup and get a web counter but that can wait for next month.

As of right now, my project has hardly begun. To be brutally frank, it's hasn't started. Tutorials, a bit confusing. Lecture notes been procrastinating too busy to read them. Haih... 3rd year. Anyway, it's all good! Somehow, someway, some.... other region of the earth? hahahahhaaa.... me gila liao...

Well, here's hoping by this time next week I would have

  1. Finish 90% of my tutorials.
  2. Read through all my lecture notes.
  3. Got my project underway i.e. Read all about holograms and started using Matlab to design the mask.
  4. Kept up to date with everyone's blog which is (in no particular order) Tim Nam, Dave, Nigel, Misaki, Kin Wah, Chien Yin, Roy, Hsiu Lye, Ee-lin, Choon. Think that's it.

The first 3 parts, I'm pretty sure I can do since my week is clear of any pesky going outs. The 4th.... well, harder since I still don't have internet access in my room! Sigh... wait another 15 to 20 days...

Anyway people, just wanted to write this as a starting point. See you all next week!!

It's up!!

Finally, my blog is complete!

Saturday 23 October 2004

Confused.

It's been a busy, busy week. To stress this point, let's just say my entire week's worth of afternoons were not used for studying though not entirely wasted. Let's recap...

Monday:
Went shopping for groceries. Came back totally tired out.

Tuesday:
Had a graduate fair at the Octagon. Was suppose to go for a short time but didn't realise how short afternoons were anyhow.

Wednesday:
Attended 2 talks, one after another. One on digital filters which are related to my project. The other, on working in the UK after graduation.

Thursday:
Oh boy, what an afternoon! Attended a cleanroom safety course (that lasted only 15 minutes) then had to rush to HSBC to make my credit card.

Friday:
Saw my supervisor about my project. Got most of the details sorted out and can go ahead full steam!!

So, unproductive week academically but productive project and work wise. Next week, nothing planned so, can get down to work. And nothing is going to stop me!! MUAHAHhahahahahaha...!!!!

Wednesday 13 October 2004

Hoobastank - Same Direction

Hoobastank - Same Direction

whenever i step outside, somebody claims to see the light
it seems to me that all of us have lost our patience.
'cause everyone thinks they're right, and nobody thinks that there just might
be more than one road to our final destination

but i'm not ever going to know... if i'm right or wrong
'cause we're all going in the same direction
and i'm not sure which way to go... because all along
we've been going in the same direction

i'm tired of playing games, of looking for someone else to blame
for all the holes in answers that are clearly showing
for something to fill the space, was all of the time i spent a waste
'cause so many choices point the same way i was going.....

but i'm not ever going to know... if i'm right or wrong
'cause we're all going in the same direction
and i'm not sure which way to go... because all along
we've been going in the same direction

so why does there only have to be one correct philosophy?
i don't want to go and follow you just to end up like one of them
and why are you always telling me what you want me to believe?
i'd like to think that i can go my own way and meet you in the end.

but i'm not ever going to know..........if i'm right or wrong
'cause we're all going in the same direction
and i'm not sure which way to go... because all along
we've been going in the same direction, going in the same direction, going in the same direction...
© 2004, Island Def Jam Music Group

(copied from www.hoobastank.com)

How true... there's always many ways to get just one thing done. So, why does everyone claim to know what's best for the world?

P.S. Hope I'm not infringing any copyright rules...

Saturday 9 October 2004

Sleep deprived maniac

It's been a long week. This week, project started so been busy finding out stuff about it. With all the library searching and house settling, been very tired out.

Last Thursday was the MASSOC social. Thought it was the time for the new sub-committee to take over so went for it. Wrong social. Oh well, at least get to catch up with a lot of friends.

Other than that, been doing nothing out of the ordinary. Gonna be a busy week next week too. See you all soon!!

In the end.

Funny with all the things going on around me i.e. project, lectures, tutorials, shopping, etc. I still get those day-dreaming times. The one that has been playing around my mind recently is... how shallow humans get.

Not shallow as in, taking only good stuff but overall. I mean, for many people, having a successful career is important. Not only to the money loving and power loving people, but also to the general nice public. Having a good job means stability, putting food on the table and a bit extra for those extravagants now and again. When choosing uni course, choose those with job opportunities. When choosing which job to go for, choose one with better job prospect. Go uni that has good status.

For the less career minded, having a good family is important. Or having good friends. Getting married. Find a love one, settle down, have children, put them through college and play with their grandchildren.

But when you look at the big picture (meaning the goal at the end of it), none of this matters in the end. So you are a millionaire, how much is that worth in the end? When you are on your deathbed, can you look back and say you have a great life? To me, a career is nothing. Having a great family means a lot, but not something worthwhile.

I guess what I'm trying to say is, in the end, what's the meaning of life? Is it getting a good career? Is it having a good family, continuing the family line? Or is it making the world a better place. Or doing what God wants us to do here on Earth.

When you stop and think of the world from a broad perspective, many things in life are very insignificant. Your great career will be forgotten in 10 years. The contributions to charity, probably 10 months after the drive is over. Humans are prone to forget. We forget the good things people have done for us. We forget the importance of various moments in life. We lose sight of the meaning of things.

We get an education in order to supply ourselves with the necessary tools to go out into the world and do good. It's not for the As, the First Class, or for the big money.

Linkin Park's song In The End is a very good example:

I tried so hard and got so far,
but in the end, it doesn't even matter.
I had to fall to lose it all,
but in the end, it doesn't even matter.
A certificate is but a piece of paper saying you learn certain skills. It begs debate when having an education doesn't necessarily prepare you for the real world and that some people don't need an education to go through life. What's it all worth? From a Christian point of view, what would we tell God and Jesus about our life? That we manage to produce more people for His Earth? That we made a million dollars? Or that we made a difference in this world. That we have made the world better for those still on it and for the other livings things God has bless the Earth with. That we took care of the Earth that we were entrusted with and not spoil it's beauty.

Why do we do what we do? We meet people, make friends but sooner or later, we break apart. Even families don't stay together always. Granted families maintain contact but then, they get their own families and spent more times with them. If friends come and go, why meet them in the first place? If we live as hermits, we never have to endure the sorrow of parting. The job we take, is for us, and not for anyone else. The company can replace you tomorrow. But what they can't replace or even destroy, is the legacy you leave behind.

Everyone has their own lives, even twins. The reason I believe friends are there is because there is a purpose. They come into our lives, touch it, change it in a way so wonderful, it's indelible. When their purpose for our lives is done, they inevitably move on to touch someone else's life. For who we are in not just inborn. The life we live, the decisions we make are all due to influence from people, whether it's a salesman or your best friends.

They say no one can influence your decision if you don't want to. I think, whether we or they like it or not, the influence is there. We reject their advise because we don't agree with it. However, when you ask a few people, we tend to think over all their advises and make the right decisions. Whether the advise was good or bad, it has an influence on our final decisions. It's not seen but it's there. It lingers, long after it's been said.

Sometimes, our actions are enough influence. There are many people who have mould their lives by seeing how others live theirs. I firmly believe that while we live different lives and have different charaters, its mostly due to a mixture of all the influence around us.

In the same way, I believe we can all influence one another. The choice is, whether we choose to or not. As for me, I would like to think I've made a difference in the lives of those around me. I might never know about it, I might not think about it, but I'd like to believe its there. So the qustion now is, have I influenced you today?

Monday 4 October 2004

The Day After Saturday

This morning, almost missed church coz could not wake up in time. In fact, felt like skipping it also. However, after hearing the message today, felt it was worth turning up late.

Today, pastor Dave talked about change. How things around us are always changing. That sometimes, we are in a situation of being between changes. Whenever God wants to put us in a better position, inevitably we will go through a period of discomfort as we move from where we were to this new area which is better for us. And that is the gist of what I caught.

After service, Kam was in Sheffield so me, Sue Li, Shu En and Kam went out for lunch. Well, and that's about it for my day. See you all next week!! Hhhahaha.... short ain't it?

Saturday 2 October 2004

First week in classes

It's been, one week since you looked at me... I mean, since classes started. So, from the academic point of view, it's been a fruitful week. Lots of tutorials but I'm getting on. Lectures also okay. Project starting next week.

And now, from the housing point of view. All stuff have been cleared so the house no longer look like a war bunker. Still some leftover stuff to go through, whether to throw, give away or take for own use. And internet, earliest next week only got but I wouldn't cross my fingers.

My phone number has not change, contrary to what I've been advertising around lately. And that's about it, I think! Update again next week!

So now, me going to type the deep types...

Thursday's lesson and the talk afterwards gave me a lot to think about. I suddenly realize (moment of truth!!) that many of the things we learn in school/college/uni are not applied in the working world (as most working people will know). However, the skills we pick up while learning those lessons is what is valuable. I realize, those skills are applied even while working. It's kinda funny once you think about it that the real world education we need to get is picked up while learning other things.

The other thing I realize (on Friday) was that no matter how much things change, there are still things that stay the same. For instance, most of the new 2nd year students are sitting beside the churchyard eating lunch or buying food at Popeye's which, was the same thing we did last year at the beginning. Hehe... weird...

Monday 27 September 2004

First day at church!!

Today woke up at 3 actually. Hehe... nola, after that slept again till 7 in the morning. After that, went to IT centre to check mail and set up my blog (as you can see). At 10.30, walk with Sue Li to Hope City Church. The message today was pretty relevant to me. It talked about going through a transition period which I felt was happening last year. A lot of what the pastor said made sense about moving from here to there. As we go through life, we will inevitably change. No matter how much we hate to, we will have to. Today’s message, taught that God wants us to change. He wants us to continuously change, moving closer to Him. It’s the devil that will make us resist this change as he does not want us to know God more. Therefore, we have to beat him by fighting the urge to stay the same, dig in and claim what God has prepared for our lives.

After service, the church had a buffet lunch so, had lunch there. Then, I took the bus home. On the way back, met with Aik Kian and his friends and had a short chat. Got home about 3, 4 in the evening. Later on, Shaun and the rest wanted to eat dinner outside, so I just followed along. After dinner, the rest decided to dye their hair red. Since they had leftover dye, guess who was the (un)lucky victim was?

That’s right, I got rope in!! Sigh... oh well, should be something new. Finally, Shaun said I have changed since May. Looking back, I guess I have changed. Last year, I was too emotional. After that wake up call, now, I’m feeling more secure and can be myself. Well, most things have been settled, so I’ll soon have time to take a few photos of my room and apartment. Check back here for the new photos.

Sunday 26 September 2004

1st week back

And finally, the first post back in Sheffield!! Well, it's been a busy week of unpacking the house, buying needed accesories and settling all the uni and outside necessaries. In fact, am still to settle some agendas which, unfortunately, has to wait for Monday. Well, going off to church now, later people!

Restart

Right now, it's the start of a new semester and hopefully, the start of something better. But before I jump in, here's an update of what I've been up to since last June.

First of all though, there are some amendments I'd like to make about my previous posts. After coming back and being with my family, I can finally put my finger on my emotional rollercoaster last year. No one close in Sheffield, was very insecure. Old friends and family, they know me best, and I can be my obnoxious self with them. Going to try that here this year so for all those Sheffieldians, don't worry! You'll get a taste of it too!! Bwahahahahaaha...

The other thing I want to clear up is, after reviewing the Dinner and Dance, I guess I was a little harsh. The MASSOC team really did a great job on it and fully deserve credit for it. It's just too bad I couldn't enjoy all their hardwork. So, to the MASSOC team of 02/03, kudos on a job well done and sorry if I have offended anybody.

So, back to my summer holidays. Back in Malaysia, got a job through my parents in July. It was pretty good. Lots of hard, manual labour but it was fun. I got to play with saws!! And network cables. After all the hands on work for 2 weeks, had to quit due to the company relocating to Rawang (too far to travel) and the fact that I had to study for my resit. Yes, for all the ones who didn't know, I failed 2 papers! Aiyah, one month of holiday down the drain. After the resits, went for a holiday with my family in Cameron Highlands. The cool air, the strawberries, the fresh vegetables, and the cool hotel room! Wahahahahaha... (heck, I brought over one jar of strawberry jam to Sheffield. Anyone for bread?)

After that, just spend a lot of time at home, getting ready for coming back and just having a real holiday!! Went out with friends, ride the rides in Berjaya (pretty cool place), bowl and shoot arrows.

And now, I'm back in Sheffield!! Watch out people, the Jing is back!!

P.S. note to self, watch PGL somehow.

I'm baack!!

Yes people, the one, the only, Adrian Yong is back to blogging!! However, since many changes has gone through since my last post in June, I have to restart from blogspot which means you all could be reading this much later on since hardly anyone I know knows about this blog. Well, watch out for my second post soon!!