Sunday 10 July 2005

Round Up

Well, sort of unofficial because I have yet to blog about a quote I heard, lessons from Ice Princess and the influences which made me who I am today. Also been wanting to blog about the things I have learnt here but that can wait till I have left.

But other than those, I have pretty much finish off all the blogging posts I have delayed. It's weird that there was no post for 1 month+ then suddenly 15 posts in 9 days. Still, hopefully this doesn't happen again.

Next week, my parents are going to be down and we'll be travelling so probably no new posts till the 24th. But, will tell about my travels and my graduation day after that. And maybe, also post up the 3 that I want to. But, till then, enjoy the posts!! And I hope to see more comments and/or tagboard messages. Too quiet hehehee....

The music preference tag

From Ee-lin. Saw it a month ago but due to my lazyness procrastinating "business", only got round to it today.

Total volume of music files on my PC:
390 songs. Cleared quite a lot recently, more to go. Plus a few more to come. Wahahaha...

The last CD i bought:
Pop Shuvit's Take It and Shuvit. They're the best! Not the last though, going to probably buy a few more within the next month or so...

Song playing right now:
None actually. In IT lab, no real mood to listen. But the next song I'll be playing will probably be Evan & Jaron's Crazy For This Girl. Why? Coz it's the next song in my playlist. Hehe...

5 songs I listen to a lot, or that mean a lot to me:
Actually, hard to choose coz I listen to all the songs quite equally. But since you asked...
Come On You Reds (Manchester United)
- Manchester United theme. Would say the Glory Glory United one but that's too common...
Heart Of Worship (Passion)
- Reminds me of my sins and how much I need God.
Majesty (Here I Am) (Delirious?)
- the song I heard when watching clip from The Passion Of Christ. Really moved me that time. Not sure if it's the song or the clips but hey, it works either way...
Semi Charmed Life (Third Eye Blind)
- Just a very upbeat song.
Same Direction (Hoobastank)
- Kinda talks about life and how everyone seems to be doing the same thing. Blogged about it once before.

Five people to whom i'm passing the baton:
Wen-liang, Dave Teoh, Hong Leong, Winnie and Weng Sing.

A week of events.

Phew, glad the week's over. Oh wait, it's not! NNNOOOOooooooo....!!!!

Monday, learn the meaning behind cannot move a muscle. I literaly could not stand up! It took all my energy just to sit up on the bed.

Tuesday, I was dusty, sweaty (as usual) added with completely wet and having paint on me. Dumb rain... Oh! I also learnt I have a slight fear of heights plus experiencing having my nerves totally shot. When painting a wall, had to stand on a ladder to reach the high parts. Let me just say, it's very unnerving standing on top of a ladder that's not completely sturdy and hearing the outside door banging shut everytime someone opens it. Couldn't finish painting coz could not concentrate. In fact, for the next hour or so, every door shutting made me jump.

Wednesday, went for the last powerhouse ever. Coz next year it's Connect groups! Well, nothing much happened except it was Shu En's birthday. Also played some observation games, the kind seniors love to play at Christian camps back in secondary school. At least they tell the answers to this ones...

Thursday, had a mini Halifax gathering. That's it actually.

Friday, watched "The Man with the Golden Gun" on ITV.

Today, blogged. Tomorrow, church and lunch outing. Life is busy...

Saturday 9 July 2005

Balancing Life

I have observed a lot about life and one thing that has been consistent is how life is always a balance. It's always too much of a good thing. Never have I found something that's better the more you get it.

Food is a good example. Chocolate can be good for your skin but in small doses. Alcohol and drugs have their medicinal usages but we all know how misuse of it can be dangerous. In the same way, soya is also good but too much and it becomes bad. Also, a balance diet includes various kinds of food that makes up the total nutrition needs of a human. Also, nutrients such as fat and carbo are actually good for you but only if you need it. Since most humans nowadays spend all day on chairs, that's why people tend to avoid them.

Another good example is ethics. Being humble is good but being too humble usually means you have low self-esteem which isn't good. You have to speak up to be heard but too loud and you become annoying. Actually, I'm beginning to suspect some people go over to the bad side coz doing good is actually quite hard what with trying to balance between underdoing it and overdoing it.

In fact, even the things we build are never completely perfect. They might serve a certain purpose but don't perform very well in other conditions. 4 wheel drives can handle extreme terrain but most can't go very fast. The racing cars that go faster in 1st gear than most cars can't handle even normal roads. So it's a case of ruggedness vs speed. Then in the world of F1 racing, speed rules. But you need the necessary downforce to take corners easily. But, downforce slows the car down. So it's downforce vs speed.

And so on for a lot of things. Kinda makes life difficult in a way but also very interesting. Imagine if life leaned to one side of the spectrum. Everyone would aim to be there and everything would be the same! The horror of it all!

But, life isn't like that. We all have to find a perfect balance for ourselves in everything we do. And that's what makes each of us unique. In some ways, this makes a seemingly imperfect world, seem actually quite perfect. And personally, I wouldn't have it any other way.

Tuesday 5 July 2005

14 hours sleep

Fresh from a 1 hour sleep on Saturday night, I ended up sleep for 14 straight hours on Sunday night. After dinner, I went straight to sleep which was about 12. Unbelievably, I could not wake up the next morning. I actually woke up at 11 but I just could NOT get up. It took me all of my strength just to stand up! Regretfully, that meant I had to skip helping in church today. Haihzz....

Not a bad landmark. Set my minimum sleep time (it's at night, it's still sleep hehe...) and then set my maximum sleeping time. Good night people...

P.S. Yes, I know I was suppose to have only 5 posts up but with all the new posts coming in fast and furious, I've run out of options.

Monday 4 July 2005

Strange Sunday

Today, I slept a record minimum of only 1 hour. That's right ladies and gentlemen, I stayed up almost the entire night mostly blogging and getting back in touch with some distant friends. Went back home at 9 and took a nap from 9.30 till 10.30. Then, took a shower and off to church!
Church today was excellent. Pastor Jenny started a series of talks about staying put with God. Today basically was talking about integrity and sticking by them. Finally found a reason to why I abhor smoking and alcohol. It really WAS about the principle (more on me and alcohol later).

Throughout the entire service, I actually felt a little light on my feet. In fact, I was probably having an adrenaline rush. That was NOT a reaction I expected. You'd think I'd be more tired and yawny but no... felt more like ready to go bungee jumping. But the message was good and I manage to get through the service as if I had enough sleep. (course, I did have a really good sleep the night before and that could be the reason I'm ok)

And after the service, there's the customary chatting and waiting. Usually, I'm quite happy just standing around and catching up with people I know. Today, I boldly went where I normally wouldn't go... be my cheeky self. Yes, I actually did something that ruin my good boy reputation most girls seem to think of me. Reflecting back, I probably was more open today then I can remember.

It's weird because as far as I remember, I'm only like that at home. With friends, not so much though the wisecracks are there. Among church friends, I'm even quieter, mostly coz most of what I think up is not appropiate for media. Heh.

I don't really know why exactly I'm so shy. Partly because I'm afraid some of the things I think up are not quite appropiate. Partly because I'm afraid I might sound too bossy. Partly because I fear rejection.

Somehow, these fears have always made me more withdrawn. I tend to stick in the background and keep my distance. That way I can be quite sure I'm not stepping on anyone's toes (figuratively speaking) and that I don't offend anyone. I've only just come to realize that this mentality is not right and it's something I'd like to change soon.

I can at least give a reason why I was suddenly a little bolder today. I say a little, because I know I can be more daring than that. One thing I realize is that when I'm tired, the first thing I lose is all the negative thoughts and shyness. A good example is while I was helping around the Megacentre. When I'm tired out, I'd stop worrying whether I'm overstepping any boundaries or not behaving appropiately. My mind is only consumed with getting the job done and that helps me perform faster and reach my actual limit. Same reason, those negative thoughts just somehow did not exist today.

Usually when I've recovered, I'd be terribly embarrassed but so far... I'm still numb. It's actually made this day quite good actually. Now if these continues....

MUAHAHAHAHAHahahahahahahaa....

Sunday 3 July 2005

Homeless (30th June 2005)

This day was the last day of my current accomodation contract. By 12pm, we had to move out and give back the keys to the apartment. No worries about shifting bags and boxes as we rented the apartment next door for a whole month. For those who wonder why we didn't then rented back the same apartment, it's because all contracts in Portland Towers is a 12-month contract and the new tenants in our apartment are moving in straight away. By contrast, the next door tenants are enjoying the summer away from Sheffield so we can 'tumpang' temporarily.

Actually, this arrangements is quite good. All my housemates previously wanted to rent this apartment but got beaten to it by another group. So, at least they have the chance to live in it for a month. And after seeing the new apartment, I can see clearly the difference. It's soooo much more better! The place seem cozier, the furniture are bigger and the living room and kitchen together are nearly double the size of their counterpart back in the old apartment.

Though there's no internet, it's not a problem since we are nearby the IT centre in Mappin (the Engineering department).

The only problem was that the new contract starts on the 1st of July. That means, I would have to spend the night somewhere. My original plan was to pull an all-nighter in the IT centre. At least that would help me get some internet things settled such as Graduation issues, blogging posts and mostly, catching up on news on the internet. It does mean I would be homeless for almost a day.

However, the night before the big move, the 3 of us who were planning the all-nighter got a bit of good news. Our friends at Victoria Hall had 2 rooms free due to friends being on holiday. They wouldn't be back either since the Vic Hall contract ends on the 1st of July anyways. So, we got 2 beds to share for the night! In fact, it was 3 since another friend stayed over at her new place that night.

In the end, we brought over a duvet/sleeping bag/bedsheet for each of us and spend the night there. Well, actually we only slept at nearly 5 till about 11 since we stayed quite long in the IT centre anyways.