Surrender all, surrender all

Surrender is never easy. Surrender doesn't make us happy. Surrender isn't something we wish for (except to others). But surrender is what God wants from us. Not for His sake, but for our sake. That He may do wonders in our life, so that we may prosper, and succeed, and know Him all the more.

Surrender isn't necessarily a bad thing. It's just a very difficult thing. As humans, we want control over our own lives. We want to be in the know, the have the path before us laid out wide, tarred and smooth. But God doesn't work that way. He makes corners. Some parts, it's so narrow, we need Him to help us through. More often than not, it's a dirt lane, where we get muddy and dirty and having to scramble through.

And at some point, we'll get to a dead end. We can't turn left, we can't turn right. There's no way forward and going back is not an option. The only way to look, is up. To find God, surrender our will to Him. Let Him take the problems, the burden and let Him work it out. To surrender our lives to Him.

While lots of times I hear about surrendering our lives to God, I didn't actually grasp the full meaning till recently. Surrendering our lives mean giving up our rights to live life as we want to. It means having decisions made for us that we disagree, object or even fight against. To acknowledge that God is king and ruler and to do everything He tells us to, no matter how illogical, how idiotic or how much we don't like it.

He may even ask us to do what we said we will never do! Of course, I don't mean smoking or doing drugs but in other ways... We may say we'll never climb a tree. One day, you may be sitting up in one. We may never want to speak in front of a crowd. He may use us to speak to billions, live.

The hardest part about the whole surrender is that when we do, He'll often take us to places where we're in over our heads. Where we feel like we're sinking without a trace, drowning in the pool of life. At times like this, we hold on, to the one who promises never to let go. To hang on to Him because our lives depends on it. To trust Him to work it out, to bring us through because we know, we can't.

The amazing part is: He does! He not only helps us through the problem, He makes us soar above it! We do head and shoulders better than we ever expected, we exceedingly succeed where we thought we'd fail. He'll bring us to dizzying heights, the like of which we never imagine. The success that we never even dare to dream. The greatness that only God can provide. And rightly so, all glory to Him.

I haven't seen what greats He has in store for me (if I did, I wouldn't be here anymore). But that's surrender. To know that He has that better plan and to trust Him to bring me through it. It's time I stop living by myself and letting God live through me. It's time, to surrender all.